you come close and disappear.
why do you steal away these sighs; look,
even the air is giddy with your scent. your eyes have
left beautiful trails that lead me nowhere and everywhere
all at once. i hesitate;
what have i become with you next to me.
these roads are strange now. everything seems blessed
in your presence. even the skies seem to be livelier. you
and i part many times, each heartbreak of each of our lives
are imprinted somewhere my old love,
but this time, this time, this heart knows not to yield;
the fragnance of you, imaginings of you lead me to beautiful
places, yet this heart refuses to be yours. i shake away thoughts
of you that fill me, and topple me, unbalanced like a claypot
filled to the brim.
you are the universe in me. all of astrology couldn’t explain you
to this wild heart of mine. i wake with you; tell me there is a remedy
for this heartbreak, this forsaken soul of mine.
i couldn’t lose you again like this, i have no strength to comprehend
the vastness and the beauty of the universe you’ve built inside me.
i can’t find the language to tell you that we live inside each other,
that a love like this is what i’ve been searching for in all of eternity
and if you asked why i won’t ever take a chance-
because you have the power to break me into a mess, that you have
claim to every region of my soul. i cannot be yours
because i am already yours.